“October in Ashes” © Evgeniy Shaman Displayed here by kind permission of the artist / Slika je objavljena uz pisanu dozvolu umetnika.
“ Hot is your inclination, but your heart is filled with cold,
As a secret back door that lets the cold wind in!
Where is the lover you will love constantly?
Where is your shepherd who you would always be true to?”
“ Gilgamesh”, Sumerian-Babylonian epic
Lilith in Capricorn yearns for the absolute! Here she brings two serious ambitions: toward material weath or realization of spiritual peace through the search for truth in the fact that the Universe knows no good or evil, but instead reflects in everything the divine principle and only by knowing the laws of the Universe we will be capable to get closer to the Deity.
In that sense it is difficult for a person to achieve both of these ambitions at the same time. With some the conversion comes later, while with others it never happens because of their stubborn attitude and the need to have every situation under their strict control.
Because of their inborn rigidity they may miss many situations in life. It is very hard for them to accept life for what it is but instead strive to shape it according to them, which gives them a false sensation of having absolute power, which privilege puts them above others. Sometimes to the point that they consider their own life worthier than the lives of other people, themselves as superior beings, and in that sense it may happen that they cross some boundaries whether in their behaviour or in the job they do.
When their desires and hopes do not come true, their bitterness and acid can be so great that the person will fall ill on a psychological level. It is hard for them to accept depressive periods, when nothing is going on, when every action is blocked, every waiting is hard for them and accepting the inevitable in their private as well as professional life. They are best suited for positions that require a certain power and title, the awe of others suits them better than whether they are loved or not. Often they are professsionaly in a position to rule over others, usually through harsh, rigid methods, they do not adjust to anyone except if they see in that a possibility for achieving personal gain which is how they find a compensation for their personal frustrations that are most frequently of an emotional nature. People with Lilith in Capricorn have an extraordinary endurance and stamina when it comes to conflict, when there is something that must be seen through to the end, so many of them are found among lawyers, where they will fight to the last breath, they never give up, not even when everything seems lost. If they don’t comprehend on time that not everything is in money, in time they become greedier and prone to acquiring riches for a whim. That is why the pressures that they impose upon themselves so great, that, combined with the existing psychological insecurity they sometimes bring about nervous breakdowns, suicide attempts etc. All of this comes from losing all hope. The person in time ceases to hope for anything, ceases to have desires, dreams. This is where the ascetism comes from.
However, ocassional isolation, withdrawal can here be constructive in the sense of fortifying the spirit, training patience and will, but many experience them as their opposite: as a stroke of unlucky destiny, a forced state of arrest and blockade, from which they try to free themselves. What they should learn is how to achieve their ideals in acceptable ways. This position gives great chess players, mathematicians, economists. In the spiritual sense it is excellent for all the techniques that put the mind and body in balance and all of that through excercises of self control…yoga, aikido, tai chi, pilgrimages (Paolo Koelio).
From the spiritual side, Lilith in Capricorn is the mistress of the Mystical, all ancient knowledge, spiritual formulas, elixirs of youth and the secret of the alchemist’s turning lead into gold. Through patience and time, she gives these people the ability to instinctively feel when it is time to go forward and create some miracle in their life, some big step that usually basically transforms all, enhancing foremost their quality of life, but also their financial power. Only, they first must believe in miracles. And the road to there usually leads through accepting responsibility for everything. If we are talking about a person that aspires to spirituality, it is absolutely certain that he will, when the moment comes, find himself in a position to teach others and impart the wisdom that it is impossible to go through life independently without the support of pure spirit, which is for the mental the same as bones are to the body.
Women can be completely focused on motherhood and while the child is still small and under their supervision, they act as exemplary mothers, but when the children grow up and go away they experience true breakdowns. They often experience this as punishment and ingratitude, so many of them unconsiously tie their children to themselves with unbreakable bonds. This position points to the reason of the emotional unhappiness in these women is the neglected and rejected female principle. Men and women usually have thick and rich hair, and deep set eyes that seem darker than they are. Emotions are frequently blocked because of strictness in early upbringing, so women conciously or unconsiously through life seek a powerful, authoritative man and a name that will bring them fame, power, position and money (Jacqueline Onasis, Hilary Clinton, Eva Braun).
Perhaps we will find here relationships with those who are much younger or much older that the person, but sometimes there are long periods of loneliness in which it seems that sex is lacking for years and then all strength is poured into ambition and work. Into reputation. These people are very tied up by the past and usually have an undefined but emotionally strong love relationship in their youth that blocks their future.
The existence of strong and true emotions toward a woman can result in a total blockade of the libido in a man, which is why sexual desire can be absent, so sex becomes a great torture; on the other hand a woman that does not inspire him emotionally and with whom he sould never appear in public, that he doesn’t respect or love, liberates his shackled senses and gives him supreme pleasure. Sexual imagination is boundless, and the man in particular asks himself “are there any boundaries to the perversity of the human mind?”, and the more bestial the sex – the better (Charles Bukowski).
Sometimes success in the career is connected to sex, either one gets a job “overnight”, and there is also the possibility of various affairs, public scandals. In celebrities and those who aspire to fame it can be fatal and bring about death in public or a fall from grace at the pinnacle of success (John Dillinger, Al Capone, Drazen Petrovic). At first glance, this person expresses an incomprehensible bitterness toward everyone, in moments of hightened sensitivity and vulnerability, in order to hide them, it lays the guilt on anybody, not comprehending that it it he who is responsible for the problems of his own life.
Other celebrities with Lilith in Capricorn: Gavrilo Princip, George Orwell, Salman Rushdie, Eminem, Ted Turner, Stephen King, Elton John, Giorgio Armani, George Gershwin, Mel Gibson, Gwyneth Paltrow.